Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Darkness

Bart had some surgery yesterday. The surgery itself was not a big deal in the grand scheme of things, but he had to be put to sleep. The ‘putting to sleep’ part has had me freaked out for several months, ever since I was told that would happen.

On the weekend, my mind was consumed with dark thoughts. I found myself studying his face, his smile, his gestures. I had a heightened appreciation for his energy and sense of humour. On Monday night, I didn’t sleep at all. The darkness was overwhelming. When a very sleepy Bart appeared at my bedside at 2AM, I pulled him into bed with me, held him and stroked his hair.

For more than two hours in the waiting room, I aimlessly flipped through years-old magazines. I couldn’t tell you what was in even one of them. I know I had a conversation or two with Homer. Again, no recollection of what we talked about.

This morning, Bart was bouncing off the walls. He thinks he went to sleep to get his superhero powers installed. He was going around the house giving everyone “Hot Fire” to make them do things for him. He’s back and he’s fine.

I am so grateful to be out of that darkness.

15 comments:

Nowheymama said...

I am so glad everything went well. Give him an extra hug from the blogosphere.

Pickles and Dimes said...

I'm so happy Bart's doing fine. And that he has superpowers! :)

Rolling Off The Edge... Together said...

This would scare the heck out of me as well. Glad the surgery went well - every city needs a good super hero!!!

Astarte said...

I'm so glad that everything went so well!!! I love that he has superpowers now! You must have done a wonderful job covering your fear for him to have had such a positive experience.

Jess said...

That time when someone you love is under general anesthesia... it is probably the scariest ever. I'm glad it all went so well.

Not Your Aunt Bea said...

I am happy to hear that I'm not the only one with that fear of the darkness. Miss A has had to be under twice and it almost killed me the fear.

Glad to hear he is well and that his superpowers are working! I want superpowers!

Chantal said...

Oh My, I am so glad it went well. My D had a serious fall a year ago and the doctor prepared me for the possibility that he might have to be put under for emergency surgery. I almost fainted, cried (in the bathroom) and was generally a complete mess. I totally get how you were felling.

artemisia said...

Oh,this took by breath away. I am so very glad he came through just fine.

I am glad you are on the other side of this, too.

Enjoy your "Hot Fire!" (Too cute!)

Bette Creek said...

as a mom whose had her own kid put to "sleep" 5 times now in 8 years, I know how you felt. I've never been relaxed before each time, it freaks me out every single time!! I'm glad he's all better now!!

Erin said...

Wow. So sorry but SO GLAD everything is okay. Even when things are "routine," there is nothing routine about using anesthesia on your child. I felt the same way when Cal got his ear tubes put in. Scared the DICKENS out of me.

Mighty Morphin' Mama said...

so scary, I would have been exactly the same way. I am terrified of the being put to sleep part.
I am so glad that all is well.

Chantal said...

Hi Lori,

I have a question for you. When you made PioneerWomans cinnamon buns did you use whole milk? And at the risk of sounding like an idiot. What is the equivalent to whole milk here? Is it 35% or 18%?
Thanks
Chantal

Badness Jones said...

Hugs! That's terrifying, isn't it? I'm glad that everything went well.

Beck said...

I can make myself just a whimpering wreck by just THINKING about my kids being put under, so I'm with you - I'm so glad he's okay!

Chantal said...

Hey Just wanted to drop in and wish you a belated Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year, fa la la la la